On Saturday I weighed in and I was up. On Sunday I was up further, and I ate more than I should out of frustration, which means I was up even more this morning. Which means I ate more today. It's a stupid cycle. It's so unfair that it is so hard to lose it but so easy to gain it.
I should have cut myself a little slack though. This weekend I was soo stressed, got very little sleep, and I'm about to start my menses. Of course I gained weight. But instead of keeping on track, I went off the rails just a little bit. Not bad, but enough that I'm sure I'll be up just a little bit more in the morning.
If I ever see 250 again, I'm going to cry. I was back up to 247 this morning. I was ready to just give up and walk away, walk right back to greasy, salty foods. And bread. But tomorrow is a brand new day and I feel like I can't let myself just give up. I've come so far, and while yes it is hard, and yes it is taking me forever, I can't just stop now.
It's time to kick it into high gear and see what I can accomplish. For the rest of this week I need a food plan and an exercise plan, and I need to stick to it. Can I do it. We'll see...
I've adjusted my "lose it" plan to aim for losing 2 lbs a week. This way I won't feel bad when I'm so far down on the calorie scale. That was ridiculous to try to eat almost 2000 calories a day. How am I supposed to lose weight that way? So now I am aiming for fewer calories, and I'm not adding in my exercise anymore. The point of exercise is to use the calories I've packed on to my body. If I just eat them back, it's not helping me.
Well this is longer than I thought it would be.
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