Last night I was out at In Cahoots (line dancing bar) with a group of friends. Lissette made the comment that people tend to talk the most about the most important relationship in their life, be it a boyfriend, a friend, school, work or whatever. I realized that the thing I talk about the most is food. The relationship I think about the most is my relationship with food. Then I started joking about how food and I were in an abusive relationship, and that no matter how bad it treated me I just couldn't seem to walk away from it.
For the last 24 hours, I haven't been able to stop thinking about how that joke isn't actually funny, because it's true. Food and I have been in an abusive relationship for most of my life. I think about it more that I should, I can't seem to deny it no matter how crappy it makes me feel, and I definitely talk about it too much.
But how do you break up with food? How to turn it from something that I think about all the time to something that is merely a necessity for survival?
I had to think about food more and more in order to change how I viewed it. Now I find that maybe I have to try to change my thinking again. I'm just not sure how to go about it. Something to research.
When it comes right down to it, we need to break up. It's not a good relationship and it needs to change. It seems like something I can use. I've survived breakups. I wonder if it is possible to just think about it in similar ways. For instance, when I start to get a craving for certain foods, can I just think about it the same way as I would the need to call an ex? Something that would do me no good in the long run? Wouldn't that be something.
huh. This is a very interesting concept. I took would consider not just food, but my relationship with it. And not just food... but certain types of food.
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