second day

For the second day in a row, I've come in waaaaay under calorie budget. I worried that I was too stressed, but today was my day off and I wasn't stressed. And I don't particularly feel depressed. I think that I'm so worried about eating over budget that I'm not eating at all. I am so determined to lose weight, but I need to do it healthy-like instead of starving myself accidentally.
On the other hand, I know that it wont last, so why would I not just enjoy it, why would I not just let myself lose the weight while I could and then figure out a new plan when it stops.
The only thing I'm still missing is exercise. I'm going to have to figure something out and soon.

Under budget

Soooo... I ate 800 calories today. And I'm so not hungry. I had granola for breakfast, and then teryaki turkey jerky, sharp cheddar cheese and some peanut butter for "lunch" around 4, so it counts as one meal. I also had a little bit of mocha almond fudge coconut milk ice cream. Not only did I not have the chance to eat today, I picked good foods to eat.
On top of that, I'm really stressed out at work, super busy and not meeting all of my deadlines. So I'm stressed and for the first time I'm not eating. If only I was getting the chance to exercise instead, it might not be so bad.

Googbye 250!

So, this week I lost 5.6 lbs, putting me firmly at 247. If I can be really good this week and get down to 245, even if I waffle a bit I should never again have to see 250. Ever. This is the beginning of a new life, a life where I don't live it at an eighth of a ton, and never again will I. I'm feeling good about this upcoming and week and my ability to do this right. The big challenges are when I go out with friends, and the weekends when I stay home. But I can come up with a plan and I can surpass these challenges.
Now if I could only find the time to start running again...

Doing well so far

Yesterday started off well, but then I had some trouble by the afternoon. I had like three coffees through out the day, and only one of them was "non-fat". If I could do it over again, I would have made them all non-fat. And tried to share the chocolate chip muffin with someone.
However, thanks to the encouragement of my weight-loss buddy, I ended the evening with a delicious but healthy salad at Island's rather than eating out like normal. And I was down today! Monday is my weigh in day. I'm hoping that since I'm working all weekend I wont be eating a lot, so I'll still be down by Monday.
Let's see!

KFC

Today was stressful. I ate a greek yogurt for breakfast, part of a strawberry spinach salad for lunch. And then for dinner, I had popcorn chicken and potato wedges at KFC. I was taking a consumer out for dinner, and that's where she wanted to go. But mostly because it's where I asked her if she wanted to go. It was supposed to be a treat for her, but I was so hungry that I ate too. All in all, it wasn't a very large amount of food, but it wasn't good food at the end. I'm not sure how tomorrow is going to look on the scale.
I'm wondering if it's worse to eat less but not as healthy, or eat more, but healthy. I know what most people would say, but I can't help but wonder if it all comes out in the wash. Tomorrow will be a good test.

Not a good start

So this weekend, I was home, by myself, procrastinating, which means I ate. and ate. And it wasn't until the middle of Sunday when I realized that I was eating so much because I was procrastinating. It's kind of amazing that I'm just now realizing that the worst part of my eating disorder is when I'm procrastinating on something important. I need to start analyzing earlier in an eating day and try to cut the cycle before it's too late.

I also haven't started my plan yet, or even finished creating it. I would say I've been working, but you already know I've been procrastinating. It's time to really get this thing started. It's time to get it done right. Because I'm almost out of time.

And I'm back

I finally have internet again, which means that I'm back on track with the ability to blog. Now I can really get down to a healthy regimen. Tonight I'm going to sit down and plan out a week's worth of meals, of exercise, and of counting calories and such. I'm half way through September and I'm realizing that I only have 3 months to lose another 20 pounds. And that is my goal. I'm going to lose 20 lbs before the end of the year. That would put me at 230 lbs, which would be amazing and would mean that I will have lost 65 lbs. And wouldn't that be just crazy.
So tonight is the night that I get started. That I make a plan. Today was a stay at home, eating day, and even then, I didn't do that bad. Cereal, popcorn, lean cuisine pizza, turkey jerky, pasta and cheese, ww desert bar.
One of the things that I really need to get is a Brita filter so that I can have water in the fridge. I haven't been keeping properly hydrated. It seems that it's only when I have a strict plan that I'm able to be successful. So I'm ready to plan. I'm ready to start this thing again and get down to the next level.
Here goes!