There comes a point...

... when you have to decide if you are going to give up because it is no longer easy, no longer working the way you want it to. And while there is a part of me that does want to give up, that does want to walk away from my running and my diet and just go back to living my life of food that is greasy and delicious and not worry about, not think about it, there is a bigger part of me that remembers why I started this journey in the first place, and refuses to give up now. That's the part of me that realizes that I'm still 250 lbs.
It's weird, because I am no longer seeing the scale drop, but there are so many other indicators that I want to focus on. And it's hard when the scale seems to be laughing in your face to focus on those other indicators. Because of this, I'm going to write them down in the attempt to focus on them just a little bit more.
1) I'm wearing a size 20. It's been years since I could wear a size 20.
2) All of my slacks are way too big.
3) So are my dress shoes (I never even thought of that until it happened)
4) When Rob and I went to get Fro Yo, and we walked back up the hill, I wasn't at all out of breath, where I used to have trouble making it up at all
5) Looking at pictures of myself from last year, there's a huge difference.
That's good for right now. It's time to get back into it. I was off my thyroid for a little bit and it screwed up my sleep, my focus, and most importantly my ability to say no to food. But now I'm back on and working at getting my good habits back.
I'm also realizing that one of the reasons I'm not losing weight anymore might be because I've loosened my restriction of carbs. I started off on a mostly veggie/fruit/protein diet, and I've been adding carbs in and I need to kick them back out. I also need to start being wary of my sugar intake. It's time to start focusing on things other than just calorie intake. I need to start planning my meals again. I need to start working on it again, truly.
I've also decided that I'm going to start doing more exercise than just my running. I've started to weights with my arms, and I'm going to start doing yoga again, and just keep walking/jogging.
I'm not starting over, I'm not beginning again, I'm not continuing on. I'm just living the life I want rather than the life I have.