My first wall

The last couple of days have been very interesting. Tuesday night I went out to dinner with some friends, where I refused to "diet" so I got a bacon cheeseburger and some fries and then I ended up drinking a few drinks, so I was pretty sure I would be up, but I was actually down! Turns out dancing for four hours can cancel out almost everything.

Then yesterday, because of the late night, I slept in and had to get ready for work. After work, I had some errands to do and pretty soon it was 8 o'clock and I still hadn't worked out, which was not good. I was so tempted to skip it, but I knew that would be a slippery slope, so I made myself do it. But now, the next morning, I don't wanna! I know I need to. But I don't want to get out of bed. I have lots to do today, so I must get going, but I don't wanna! So, instead, I'm going to let myself relax for an hour, and then I'm going to get to work! Today will be day 12 of my December Blitz (which has officially be dubbed a cool name by my friends) and I will not let it fall. For once, I'm going to actually accomplish something I've set out to do for myself, instead of allowing myself to back out because it wont effect anyone else. Not this time, evil me!

So, while I sit here, getting motivated, I'm going to write a list of the things I want to accomplish today, and then I will do them. Easy as pie. Right? Right!

Re-Motivated!

After yesterday's rather frustrating weigh in, I got a ton of support. My dad said that he was proud that I was sticking to it and that two pounds a week is still a head of the game. My mom reminded me that our bodies adjust and that at two pounds a week I would get awfully close to my goal. My best friend said to just keep going, it's only been a week nerd. So there I was, trying to figure out what was next, and the answer is: pizza!
Confused? Let me explain. I went to the grocery store to buy some Lean Cuisine or SmartOne's dinners, but it's hard for me because I'm allergic to tomatoes and they are in almost everything. And, let's face it, they aren't always the most appetizing things. But, they do have one thing that I not only can tolerate, but actually enjoy. Pizza. Lots of different types of pizza. So I bought 6 pizzas of different flavors and I now have my dinners planned for the week. This obviously wont work for the long haul, that would be way too much pizza and I'm not in college any more. But for this week, it is on!
Not only that, but at this morning's non-official weigh in, I was down to 274.8! Another 3 pounds down for a total of five. That was the kind of weight loss I was looking for in my first week. It's amazing the difference not eating a bunch of salt can make. And it feels good to know that my treat yesterday of a large, white peppermint bark blended coffee didn't set me back too far. And it was a treat, which made me feel like I was doing okay. I think this week is going to be a good one. Productive. Bring it on Monday, I'm ready for you!

frustration

So it is the end of the week and I have lost 2 lbs. There is a part of me that knows that 2 lbs is a good start, but I can't help but be disappointed. I worked so hard. I exercised every day, I tried so hard to eat well. And yet, I didn't get very far. I guess I have to step up my game. It's time to start EA active-ing in with my WiiFit-ing. And I'm also going to start Lean Cuisine-ing for dinner. Yeah, I know that is a lot of -ings.

Today, I'm going to get my special coffee drink from It's A Grind. And I'm going to enjoy it. And then I'm going to get to work. I'm also going to stop putting so many add in's to my foot. Cut down on my sugar intake for my oatmeal and my tea. Cut down on my Ranch dressing. Really try to reduce my salt intake and up my water intake. That will be the plan for this week. If that doesn't work, I'm going to have to try something completely different. I just don't have any idea of what that would be.

I need to get out of this defeatest attitude. I'm proud of myself for sticking to my plan this week, I proved that I could do it with very little cheating, and the cheating I did do I was conscious of instead of just blind eating. And I wrote down everything. So now it's one more week. Next Sunday is the family Christmas party, so I want to make a lot of progress before then. After that, the holiday rush begins and dieting is going to be much more difficult. Getting in my exercise and eating right become more of a challenge. So for this week, focus and determination. I can do this.

The next challenge

I've always made it through the first week! Today's challenge: lunch with my coworkers. This challenge has a couple of aspects to it. The most relevant to this blog is the challenge of where: The Panda Buffet. Chinese food is not an easy way to eat healthy. It will be a little easier for me because it isn't hard for me to eat less when I'm around strangers, and let's face it, my coworkers are pretty much strangers. But, usually I just don't eat, which is not going to be possible for me in this situation. We're going for lunch, I have to eat lunch. Plus, I don't want them thinking I'm trying to hold myself apart. I'm actually trying to be a part of the group dynamic, prove I'm a team player. So I have to try to eat healthy at a Chinese restaurant, not my strong suit.

The second challenge is making sure I don't spend too much money. My fear right now is that I'm going to end up paying for part of a tab rather than just my portion. The irony of not being able to pay for a work lunch because work doesn't give me very many hours is teeth grinding. I thought writing it out would help, but really it's just making me worry more. So instead, some pump up talk!

I've been doing great so far with my work outs. I've been sticking with my new dietary plan. I'm heading toward my goal. Tomorrow is the end of the week and Sunday is my day when I get to splurge on one thing. I'm looking forward to it.

Progress!

So after days of slowly inching upward, I'm finally down! 3 lbs from yesterday, a little under 2 from my beginning mark. It's not a weigh in day, so it doesn't officially go on my chart, but it still helps in my motivation to keep going. Especially after yesterday's challenge!

Today I'm focusing on some cardio. I had a dream about running last night and it reminded me about how much I want to be a running. I know WiiFit running isn't actually running, but I'm hoping it will get me to a place where I can start. So here's the plan: WiiFit for 30 minutes, then some breakfast. Then I'm going to walk down to the bank and the grocery store, get some new produce. My mom bought me some shape ups yesterday, so I'm kind of excited to try them. Then, when I get back, I need to work on some paperwork. I'm gonna see how I feel this afternoon and figure out whether or not I want to go for a jog on the treadmill or do an aerobic workout on the Wii. Or maybe, it's time to start the EA active. Choices Choices.

The important thing is to remember that I'm making progress and that the word of the day is CARDIO!

First Challenge

Today's blog is about challenges. So far, I've been in my own little bubble, but today is the first day I have to resist temptation. My mom and I are going shopping, taking care of some holiday gift buying, and we are going out to lunch. Not only that, but there will be things like pretzels and candy and drinks, though I think that will be easier.

But now I've got a bigger issue. It's the fourth day, I've been working super hard, and I was so sure that I was getting somewhere, but instead, I'm up actually up 1.8 lbs. It totally sucks. It's not a good way to start the day. As much as people say that when you first start working out some times you gain before you lose, I was pretty sure I was going to be doing a lot better than this. Now I have to start reevaluating what I'm doing because this is obviously not working. I'm going to take what I've been eating and talk to my mom about it, hopefully she'll have some good insights about what I'm doing wrong.

Until then, the only thing I can do is stick to my schedule for the day and do the best I can to keep on track, do my morning exercises, and get through the week. If it still isn't working by Saturday, than I'll reevaluate and change what I need to. Even if that means eating Lean Cuisine's for dinner every night. Man, I hope I don't get to that point.